sad post

I feel sad all the time
I don't know what to do
I wash my mind of filth
When friends are looking through
I tell them I am tired
I make up one more excuse
Inside I am trying
To hang myself a noose
If everyone knew that
I am sure their minds would change
I am not the smart and funny girl
But the sad, sick and strange
I want the strength of a thousand men
Not to lift, but to fight
What I show of my soul
In the pure daylight

xx